This book was written several years ago as I was awakening from the false construct that we have all lived under. It was part of my reconnecting to my Higher Self and the cleansing of my inner Psyche. It was also my attempt to process my personal journey up to that point and so I wrote and started a process of "Do Your Own Research [DYOR] and come to your own truth.
Each one of us has a lot of work to do if we expect to grow and participate in this Hueman Drama unfolding before our eyes. Our value to the process is enhanced when we connect with our higher self and cleanse our inner psyche transforming our ability to make a positive contribution.
I read what I wrote, back in 2004 and I feel (see) a lack of understanding on my part and yet I share where I was, at that time, and hope it helps to illustrate the process we are all (some)experiencing. It proves one thing; when we do our own research and come to our own truth it can be transforming and will completely re frame the nature of our personal reality.
I share my personal story, my experience, in real time, through my work, the websites, the Blogs and the way I share my deepest feelings so one might be empowered to set out on the most fulfilling, trans formative journey of their lives and in the process re frame the nature of our collective reality.
What matters most, in the final analysis, is the decision to polarize oneself to the positive path, seeking love, compassion, empathy and truth and turning away from the negative polarization of fear, power and control and deception. This understanding will begin the process of connecting with ones higher self and cleansing one from the inside out.
The focus on what the New World Order, Illuminati, are doing helps to contrast who we are and who we truly want to be but it also, can, keep us in a victim identity. We need to refocus ourselves on the Conscious Creator identity so we are empowered towards our highest potential.
It can be destructive if we are trapped in the victim identity (focusing on what they are doing) instead of being in a constructive energy (focusing on what we are doing) creating a new paradigm, a new collective reality. It is important to bring into focus what 6.5 Billion people want and not what 1% of 1% want. What the majority of the people [99.99%] of huemanity want is;
· Drink clean water
· eat wholesome organic food, a hot meal
· sleep in our own bed
· share affection
· be unique
· be sovereign
· share an aspect of our particular perspective
· love and be loved
· grow in our conscious awareness
I share the opening of my book because it inspires me to keep reaching for more..........Vision Quest
Joseph Campbell and the Power of Myth with Bill Moyer’s, is one of my favorite pieces of work and speaks to a vision quest motif that resonates deep within my soul. I quote from his work;
Martin Luther King had a dream, “I have a dream that one day every valley shall be exalted, every hill and mountain shall be made low, the rough places will be made plain, and the crooked places will be made straight and the goal of the Lord will be revealed and all flesh shall see it together”.
Joseph Campbell, “We have not even to risk the adventure alone because the hero’s of all time have gone before us, the labyrinth is thoroughly known. We have only to follow the thread of the hero path and where we had thought to find an abomination we shall find a God. And where we had thought to slay another we shall slay ourselves. Where we had thought to travel outward, we shall come to the center of our own existence. Where we had thought to be alone we shall be with all the world”.
Joseph Campbell speaks to the reality of transformation based on the experience of life and our willingness to jump off into the unknown and enter the deep dark forest; in the vision quest, the adventure we call life. When I was a young man entering high school we had a small group of friends who were young and very inquisitive about life. We were like sponges soaking up information and experience with good intentions and a lot of promise. We grew up in the suburbs of Washington, D.C. living in McLean, Virginia and living the reality of our times. Popular music helped to define us; music by Neil Young, Bob Marley, John Lennon and Bob Dylan, they were singing about the Viet Nam war and the drug scene and the hope of our generation. We were living in Rome, at the foot of the Acropolis, at the seat of power for our age, Washington D.C.
We were coming of age and our lives were a reflection of the times we were living. We had the best teachers in the world and our educated backgrounds formulated our thinking. We were all encouraged to think about everything, and we did. We as young persons asked why and we were willing to step out into the unknown with the hope of finding answers to our questions. I was not alone in my thinking or in my vision quest reality. We smoked pot during our lunch breaks, at Langley High School, in McLean, Virginia and took LSD on the weekends in the hope that we would unlock something hidden and experience life in a new way. It was not all about drugs but rather about kids growing up in turbulent times and reflecting the reality of our age.
All of us, in that group, had dreams of changing the world and stepping out into the unknown, the deep dark forest, in order that we might slay the Dragon and change the world. The world that presented itself to us as dangerous; mixed up and lost in its direction and a world in need of total and complete transformation. We were idealistic in our thinking but completely well intentioned and motivated to change the reality, world view, in our lifetimes. All of us felt we were on a mission from God chosen for a special purpose and we would share our dream and articulate our plan when we spent time together. I was not alone in my thinking and I have fond memories of the people and the times that we shared during my formative years at Langley High School, in McLean, Virginia.
Idealism is a wonderful thing but put in practice it can be dangerous and misdirected. One must differentiate from what is doable in the short term or what may take generations to accomplish. The test is to pick your fight, and the timing, in order to achieve your objective. Well intentioned people make mistakes and pay the price for their actions. I was well intentioned but failed to understand the consequence of my actions due to my youth and idealism.
It has been said, “Timing is not everything but it is much.” I am driven at this time to share my story in the hope that the timing is right and my vision quest journey will resonate and entertain, and also spark something from within so we are all brought forward. It is my belief that all illumination is channeled from a higher plane of consciousness and we can all be senders and receivers if we will open our hearts and empty ourselves so the God within can seek its self expression in and through us.
Consciousness is something that expands and always seeks more. We live in an expanding universe and it is natural to seek a greater awareness. My story is one of growing up in a sheltered life and embarking on a vision quest journey, into the unknown, the deep dark forest, not once but time and time again.
It is my purpose to bring the vision quest motif alive through the words in this book not just for entertainment value but for a higher purpose. I think it wise when we can find a greater purpose and give it our energy and focus in the hope that it will expand and find its own way. My life, at times, has been filled with excitement and danger and through it all I have felt a higher direction at work. In the deepest valley’s I have felt the hand of God directing my paths, pushing me forward even when I was going the wrong way. When I have been on the highest mountain I have felt his Super Consciousness at work and even now with the words in this book I feel his hand directing me.
What’s it all about Alfe? If we just live and die then what’s the point of struggling through this life. If we don’t have a vision quest purpose then why all the pain and suffering. I believe it is through the struggle that we bear witness to the Creative Conscious Energy to share and experience Joy and Abundance with us. It is through the expanding of our inner soul that we experience this joy. Struggle means an expanding awareness and an expanding awareness leads to our Transcendence.
Not one to dig up the past and live in the memories of my mind I rather choose to live in the “NOW” and seek the wonderment of the future unknown. To experience the “what if” side of life. I now ask you to join with me on a journey through my past not to look back and relive my past, alone, but to find the meaning through my journey and share in my experience. Senator Robert F. Kennedy; “Some men see things as they are and ask why? I dream things that never were and say why not.”
It is through a purpose driven life that one finds meaning from every experience, good or bad. Finding purpose is the steam that drives the engine. In truth my purpose is threefold. To grow through the creative process and in the process bring the reader along on my journey in the hope that they too will grow. Secondly, since I do have a story to tell, I share mine in the hope that it will enlighten and motivate others to dig deep and experience the joy and abundance that comes from the journey. And three, to shape the future by sharing the what if side of life, stepping out into the deep dark forest on a vision quest, taking a chance and expanding through the adventure of life. Everyone has a story to tell and now it is my turn to tell mine. I am reminded of a great spiritual truth; we are not humans having a spiritual experience but rather spiritual persons having a human experience. What a wonderful truth. Enjoy the trip……………..
Ask and you will receive, seek and you will find,
knock and the door will be opened to you.
For everyone who asks will receive,
and anyone who seeks will find,
and the door will be opened to him who knocks.
Would any of you who are fathers give
your son a stone when he asks for bread?
Or would you give him a snake
when he asks for a fish?
As bad as you are, you know how
to give good things to your children.
How much more, then, will your
father in heaven give good things
to those who ask him!
Do for others what you want them to do for you:
this is the meaning of the Law of Moses
and the teachings of the prophets.
Coming of age in North America during the 1960’s and 70’s was at best a challenge especially when in truth much of everything was built on lies. We had the cold war going strong with Vietnam as a side show. President John Kennedy was assassinated as was Dr. Martin Luther King and the President’s brother, Robert Kennedy. Students at Kent State were dead and Richard Nixon was wire tapping and breaking into the Democratic headquarters. The Roswell incident was well behind us but the UFO cover up was in full swing. How does one believe in the system when in truth it is running on empty and we the baby boomers are the chosen ones for the propagation of the American dream? I was enamored by the possibilities and yet fully nauseous from the vomit I read about in the New York Times and The Washington Post on a daily basis.
Washington was in flames with city buses surrounding the Capitol and the White House, Detroit, Watts, Birmingham, and Mai Lai. Older brothers were coming home in body bags and Walter Cronkite was speaking out against the War. Jimmy Hendricks and Janis Joplin were dead from drug overdoses and the Beatles were singing about Peace and Love and the supposed Magical Mystery Tour. Timothy Leary was taking a trip through inner space and I was hunkered down in my parent’s basement in McLean, Virginia living the good life of wealth and privilege. Bob Dylan was singing the tune of our collective consciousness, at least as it pertains to my way of thinking and the gulf between my generation and my parent’s generation was growing ever wider and wider between what is real and what is false.
We were landing on the moon and it was possible to change the world, if only we would believe. Woodstock was real, at least in our minds, and it seemed that with a little push maybe we would get there, there being somewhere other than here. The military and false reality approach seemed destined for the garbage dump and our generation would take us down a new and perfected path. In the minds of our baby boom generation we were the chosen ones. We were the children of the elite, CIA babies, West Point, the halls of Congress, Doctors, Lawyers, and Psychologists. All part of the generation, the greatest generation, who were called and fought in the greatest war the planet has ever known, World War II. And then they came home to the land of milk and honey, the Promised Land. They were the survivors and their wives, who were really a bunch of kids. They believed in the dream and taught us to believe it. We enjoyed the life of privilege and education. The dream was very real. The Wonderful World of Disney, Mickey Mouse Club, and Father knows Best, The Beaver and The Lone Ranger with his trusted side kick Tonto. And then one day we woke up and realized that something, many things, did not add up. Could it really be that they lied and tricked us or maybe they were just gullible and were tricked into their false reality, out of hope that the world would never break down again and go to total war, Europe, North Africa, China, Japan, Nuclear first strikes on two cities. Why not believe in the dream that they survived and good old America was the Promised Land, the one power, in the world, to change and protect the world forever and ever. We, America would never let the world go under again. We could beat Nazi Germany and her allies, defeat Japan, hold back the Russians and keep the Red Chinese in check and anyone or anything that could upset our world view.
The problem I faced as a sensitive young man was do I join the lie or strike out on my own and find my way through the lies outside the system my parents and their generation had fought so hard to save. My secret mission to save the planet from sure destruction was very real to me and involved a novel approach that would happen one joint at a time. My first initiation into the drug scene was in response to the culture I found myself and the counter culture I was being drawn to. Marijuana was a response, not a first choice option. If the system was built on lies then how could I, in good conscience, join the system when I knew better? Yes, I wanted the good life, the comfort of wealth and privilege and yet my conscience told me to run and run as fast as I could because it is intoxicating and very easy to fall into the trap.
Little did I know that a little knowledge can be very dangerous if the facts are not well known. Nothing is pure gold and I soon found that out. Leaving the comfort of my blood family and striking out on my own with high hopes and a lot of animal energy, animal energy that served me well and was in a big way the root to my down fall many years later.
I started my marijuana business in the basement of my parent’s house in McLean, Virginia in the summer of 1967 when, after buying hashish for ten ($10.00) dollars a gram I realized there was money to be made and I was the perfect candidate to do it. I made friends easily and found it a perfect way to promote my God given talents of organizer and promoter of a natural herbal high. I loved the product and I believed in the mission of changing the world one joint at a time.
Star Fighter School
I had spent two and one half (2 ½) years getting ready for federal prison, when I was under investigation, and now I was set to experience it in a real way. It would be a part of my daily reality for a very long time. Thankfully I was ready for “Star Fighter School” since I had framed my prison experience in spiritual terms and I would be trained to save the planet from sure destruction in a way that was far removed from “One Joint at a time.”
My first initiation into Star Fighter School would be filled with mental, emotional, physical and spiritual exercises that were designed to build me up and train me for the work ahead and build the strength I would need to overcome my new reality. I had been taught, as a youngster, to be ready for anything and to believe that I was super naturally protected by multi dimensional beings that had power to utilize natural universal laws that most terrestrial human beings were not aware of. My mother had trained me in the spiritual disciplines and taught me to “reach for the force” and allow God’s source energy to fill me up. I was trained in the “Jedi Knight” school of thought and I always knew deep within my soul that source energy was extremely powerful and able to empower me with an ability to transcend our three dimensional understanding. Now I would be trained in spiritual disciplines of the fourth and fifth dimension. If I could maintain my focus, on my training, and leave my past behind then I could overcome the pain associated with separation and the loss of my freedom. The hard work of educating myself and completing Star Fighter School was dependant on my willingness to sacrifice and grow even when I was hurting deeply by the loss of my freedom and liberty.
I framed my thoughts to be a willing participant in a level of spiritual training that was beyond my human understanding and yet I was able to see through the glass partially. I was on a life changing adventure that had the potential to remake me into a true Jedi Knight and a graduate from Star Fighter School.
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I know we can turn this mixed up world around an so the work continues. I encourage all to express your own unique gifts to help usher in a transformation of our hue-man experience. It is time..........................